Jun 27, 2009

It's Been Awhile

It has taken me forever to get the urge to blog. So much has been going on I felt it was maybe time for me to sit back and express how I am feeling. Over the past months I have been in the hospital 3 times now I am facing going back in again for surgery. Funny how at a blink of an eye your life can suddenly change. I never once thought I would be saying the big C word yes Cancer. Me who did not learn until last year that I was diabetic now being faced with the thought of having Ms C I will call it.

Depression has set in I struggle daily trying to fight it some days are not so great it just has a big hold on me. Funny that I should call my blog Peaceful Blessings I don't even know what that is anymore. I pray all the time that God would bless me with Peace. I guess I just have to pray a little harder and a little longer. I know some who may be reading my blog is saying here Cheryl goes again with another one of her sad sad blogs. Sorry but right now this is all I have to offer. I can make you laugh about one thing I am starting to journal maybe I should include bits and pieces here about my life as a Fat Girl yup that's me. Doctors even suggested that I lose 150 pounds wow who knew I would turn out like this so my journal starts off as The Confessions of a Fat Girl. Doesn't that just keep ringing in your ears I know it does mines. I find myself more and more starring into mirrors that only I can see the dead ugly truth. Now Fat Girl what are you going to do about it! Well I have done a few things but right now my health is not letting me do as much as I would like. Cutbacks lots and lots of cut backs just can't seem to kick the Pepsi habit so I now treat myself to one of those a week instead of the massive 6 pack out of a week. They say confession is good for the soul then why do I feel like pure crap right now lol. Hmmm maybe that is another reason I have had two strokes in the last few months thank God they were mild but it was another alarm ringing and banging in my head that it is time for this Fat Girl to get rid of her Big Bloomers and tame them down to pannie size. Until another day as this Fat Girl Always says
Peace and Blessings
Cheryl....Snatch JOY!
P.S. If anyone want to share some of their joy please do I could use it!